Tormenized Mind

interesting story it is.

life is ackward. terrified by humiliating past and blurred with congested future, i now walked a different path.

today, i'm different.

relationship has always been a best fucked up agenda to me. as it today, im now not a lousy fiance to someone who had a purple and cherishable things in her life. ive been in sweetdreams for a long time already. this means no more hangouts, no more latenite talks, no more pillow talks, no more birthday wish, no more etc..

lets just not blame to each other for once. every human being needs a lifetime chance to experience it. ive definitely overwhelmed by it but it seems that i didnt try it enough.

i dont even know what love means anymore. is it worth it?

im a man full of desire. lurking out to reach some point where every mojo is not the only thing in life.

tears has always been my freaking friend lately. i never regret that. emotions do come sometimes.

ive fooled around with endless wrath and limbo of destructive feelings. ive dances with desirable snakes. ive walked through hell and yet i still miss the calm soft hand on my cheecks and chest. facing me with sorrow eyes. saying chants of emotions to take me away from all this botomless pit. where there's no desire to fulfilled, no soul to be scrife, no castle or gold to be spared. only words, promises, trust and yes, definitely love.

then came another part of this journey where it all make sense. LETTING GO.

its hard to be shared emotionally but yet its painfull enough to breaks every little faith ive got in my soul just to see only the glimpse of it. its like where all the birds just flew away distantly under the thundered and raining sky. ive seen the consequences. ive seen the history before. its just a matter of time everything will be put to end. choosing that seems to be a simple task. regrets is so yesterday.

now, its for me to choose the preferable path.

HITCH was right. at least a guy like me desarve a great chances.